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Tainted love by Arabian Oud {R}

Soul in pain, tears dried out,
I am falling, I am sinking in dark,
I am smiling but I am so artificial now,
I can't even feel my heart beat as before,
You said that you loved me forever,
But that love is so incomplete now,
Giving me wings of hope to fly,
But then
You took me on a rollercoaster ride,
Taking me to an extreme height,
And then throwing me to the deep end,
Vanishing away, with sealed lips,
Breaking my heart and calling me a liar,
I am scribbling emotions in this secret diary,
Which is a tunnel to my purest feelings,
This love, that you & I shared,
Is so alone now, so much in pain,
Tainted love, you have so ruined me,
I thought this sweet pain would end soon,
And you would kiss my pain away,
Standing in the middle of the road,
It's cold out here & home is far away,
Heart ache, soul pain, bleeding heart,
I am cloaked in blood, that is my own,
You failed to see what you meant to me,
Because you stood on the other side,
Failing to realise & question this love,
You spoke of leaving me alone one day,
Now I know, there was no love in your heart,
That drama, that thing you call love,
Is like a scorpion stinging my heart,
You never took the time to know me,
And now your complaining I didn't care,
Question your heart,
You will hear my name calling you,
Tainted love, you ruined me completely,
Close my eyes and seal my lips in silence,
Because I know my world is mine,
So tainted and so much in pain...
July 31st 2007

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