ArabianOud {R}

I thought you were my friend, my companion in sorrows, and in moments of laughter, When did I know that it wasn’t so, you used me only for your purposes, when you wanted you called me, Whenever I called you, no reply came, I could see no sign of you around me, You said I was your best friend, but all that became a big lie, you would share your sorrows, and ask for advices every now and then, Asking me to make those calls, and pass your messages to your ex, I would do that without thinking twice, I cared and loved you like my sister, but you deceived an abandoned me one day, When I needed you the most in a sorrowing moment, You said I don’t want to be friends no more, It was your ego which came in our ways, You said we were different, culturally, our lifestyles varied so badly that things wouldn’t work, It was an instant blow, and I couldn’t take it, I can’t imagine how some people can do that, using others whenever they please, and trash them whenever they please, today, I lost the m

Once upon a time, I was a very happy soul, laughing, dancing, going crazy and the life of every party and gathering, I was seen as ' go lucky' by others. As we speak, reality flips the other ugly side and I am no longer a happy soul, I am not thankless, I thank Allah for the breathe I take, for the things I have but I am not the same person anymore. I am an arrogant, difficult, miserable human being. You ask me why have I turned into something so harsh, it's a long story, cheated, betrayed and back stabbed by people I once loved and considered my best friends and special. I have been back stabbed so badly, I have lost my patience with people. I know they sayst not all five fingers are the same but I seest all of them alike, atleast the majority is like that.. Purity in love, friendship, special relationshps is all gone, I have lost trust and feel betrayed.. I am a soul whos wandering lonely but I don't feel sorrowed by my loneliness, coz I know end of the day I have so

Towadeeni ! You said you love me, But today you behave strangely, As though we aren’t anything special, You treat me so casually, I don’t seem to understand you, Each time I confront you, You say I am being too silly, Bas, your actions don’t follow your words, Is this love I ask myself? You vanish without informing, Keep me worried all along, Maybe you enjoy this attention, But it ain’t no fun believe me, Once, You see me talk to another guy, I notice anger on your face, You puzzle me every time, Coz you never treat me special, Yet are jealous coz I stray, Towadeeni! Don’t make me laugh now, Love ain’t a penny, you keep flipping, I waited for long but now I am leaving, If not today then bacher (tomoro) you will love me, And I am sure of that, Coz ur gona realise, What you lost was something precious No one aint’ gonna take your attitude, I took it for long, coz I loved ya.. Bas now its time to leave , Till you realise what love is.. Note: Image of a model for Abu Haleeqa

I am beautiful from the outter side but I am so ugly frm inside, you run after the outter side..thinking I am beautiful frm inside, but it aint like tht..majority of the people in this world are plain ugly despite the neat clean image they portray infront of others... They would rather go for someone who's beautiful and corrupt rather than someone who is beautiful and pure. They would want an easy catch, rather a hard to play person. They say 'beauty lies in the eyes of beholder' but I some what refuse to accept this, coz I don't see this happening. It's your outter covering that sells not your inside as a person, not your principles, no matter how educated or talented you are. No matter, how good you are at work or charity or as a family person, they don't wanna know you. The physical attraction that allures you is temporary, what matters is inside, your heart, your feelings, how good you treat someone. The outter beauty ain't gona last forever, what if God

These clouds seem to speak a strong language with me, they seem to guide me everyday, drag me out of sadness and bring me to light. They seem to tell me, I should learn from them, I watch them spin in a wonderous manner. For a moment, you die within, when you feel so connected to the mystical and spiritual side of this world..I always used to think such things don't exist, but with time and experiences, I have come to believe if theres something out there who listens to you closely, it's your own inner pure conscience, which Allah the Almighty blesses us with..

They say marriages are made in heaven but they need to be tied in this world. They say for every single soul there is someone and for those if there is no one.. God always has something well planned for us.. we are not unlucky,, coz we have something better to give back to this world.. I always used to believe, marriages are so lovely and all that but I became to distanced from all that I am lost in my own shell. Trying to understand my ownself and pick my own faults, too perfect I guess... no one is perfect.. sometimes, I feel I will be so misunderstood all the time.. I sealed my lips in silence.. This pic was taken at my friend's wedding reception, he recently got married. I wish him and his wife all the best.. God bless them.. But the question remains, are marriages really made in heaven? or is this simply a proverb to keep our hopes alive..

Whenever I get disappointed and feel broken in life, I think about how life could be if I was born again, as an innocent soul, away from demons and evils in this world. Whenver I fall weak in my knees, I seek the strength frm the Almighty Allah. I have felt so lonely in the past few months, ofcourse I hide it in a lot of ways. One of my classic ways of hiding is laughing and joking with everyone and making it seem everything is perfecto with me. During my trip to Geneva in May, I laughed soo much, I guess I never laughed so much, but then soon as I made my way back to London, I had tears instore waiting for me. I lost someone, and soon my joy ride turned into a tragic one, that's fate, I must admit. But it seems weird, coz I have always had more of my share in sorrow and pain than joy. Saying that doesn't mean I am going to stop being a joker, I will always be a joker for people around me, I guess that ain't gonna change ,my grief and sorrow is mine, I don't want to bur

Finally It’s finally time to leave this cage, I once called my home, A place full of peace and security, But now everything reminds me of you, Haunts me day and night, I thought you would always be there, But that was a big lie, Hoping to hear from you everyday, I spent time thinking about you, Hoping you were next to me, That look in your face, drove me crazy, But all that is plain history now, I am so lonely now again, I tried to unleash the pain, And run away so many times, But every attempt was a failure, Coz deep down, I had hope, Wishing you would come back, And hug me so tight, Kiss my worries away so bright, Everyone told me I was dreaming, I locked myself into deafness, And slowly drifted into darkness, But now I hear my voice echo, My heart questions you, Where are you my beloved? Did you ever think of me, Miss me and love me? It’s finally time to leave, I was living in a cage, You once called ‘ our home’, You kept telling me, I couldn’t leave, But today, As I walk away into