Suicidal notes by Arabian Oud {R}

My eyes looked out of the window in silence,

My body was overtaken by fears and pain,

Patience kept falling out as time passed by,

A non stop rush of words swept through,

Words of love and care,Soon started to fade away,

As I returned back to this sanctuary,

Miseries and disappointments increased,

A perfectionist was I, who was soon isolated,

The terror of their words were that of swords,

Cutting every inch of my senses,

Till I finally gave up on life,

Reminiscing those moments of joy,

For this was history to my life,

Suffocation over the chest and words freeze,

My goodness was mistaken for selfishness,

I sat down in the dark, trying to reconcile,

But alas! every attempt became a failure,

Leaving no choice but to extinguish,

Shooting myself to nothingness,

Slitting off the wrist and enduring infliction,

Madness was my cure, and shadows my friends,

Come to the gathering of lovers O' loners,

There is no peace in giving yourself away,

Love took me on a spiritual abode,

Leaving behind my body, my skeleton cage,

For today, I write a suicidal note,

Ending my life on earth, to begin another ahead..

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