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Worthless by Arabian Oud {R}





For someone,

It seems I have become worthless for you, now that the game is getting over for you, you left the scene and left me alone to suffer. Silence may have taken over and made these moments hard but what breaks my heart that I never meant anything for you other than a name. I have become a name and a number and one you feel it's enough, you just decide to delete me. I used to believe that love is deeper and pure and it can tolerate any pain because no pain means no gain. If we got everything in life very easily we would not value it, and we would not respect how much hard work that is put into getting it. Relationships have lost it's meaning.. in the digital age of the internet, facebook, myspace, flickr, hi5 and others, it seems that real relationships are committing a daily suicide... if you choose to keep your marital status single online you are in trouble if you keep it taken , you are in trouble.. but beyond all this what matters is a real relationship that is beyond online and that does not care about these hindrances... for me keeping my status online as taken is important because that is what it means to me in reality.. im not living 2 identities, i have one, and its not about people, i would like to see this from someone who knows who he is that it is for us, for our relationship.

But for now, I feel very worthless, confused and I don't know which way to go.. silence is killing me.. distances increase and the love between two individuals is fading away.. the sad story of love.. where is real love?where are people who sacrifice and give away their all to see the one they love happy..

Sorry but I have doubts about love in this time, I think most of the people out there can easily say the three words : " I love you" but when it comes to showing it, they don't know how & they run away.. easy to run away, hard it is to stay back and support the one in suffering.

In hard times, it is when Allah tests us and tests our patience, our strength and how much can we take on board.. sometimes being too nice can be useless. People say I am very nice and all that but if that is the case then why do I easily get misunderstood and why is it okay for people to take my feelings for granted?


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