Words by Arabian Oud {R}

They played a game with me for so long,
Wrapped so beautifully in such a disguise,
If only, I really knew what was in your heart,
If only, I could read your mind out so clearly,
Words, you confused me so wonderfully,
I kept falling deeper in them, losing myself,
One day you say you’re my best friend,
The other day he says he loved me forever,
Following that, she said she really cared,
My lips tore not in it’s dryness but in pain,
I could no longer say those words again,
No longer could I bear hearing them again,
I could hardly call anyone my real friend,
Or even my real companion this time,
I let them walk in my life so smoothly,
Oh what an utter fool was I to believe them,
If I really knew what was in their hearts,
I would never initiate this friendship ever,
I would never ever give away my heart,
You poke me and call me nasty and bad,
Picking faults in me and calling me lame,
You call me old fashioned and so emotional,
You never bothered knowing the real me,
Touching my shadow and calling me real,
Saying I wasn’t worth your time at all,
If you tried harder looking inwards,
You would stop noticing my faults,
Noticed those changes in them together,
Felt stranded at this path of life, so alone,
Sealed my lips and began to contemplate,
Where I went wrong in this carnival of life,
Burnt away the shadow of expectations,
And liberated myself from believing words,
Causing me anguish and so much shame,
You left me walking alone in this rain,
Shuffling my emotions and call me a fool,
Words so vague and now full of lies again,
Puzzled, I look outside the window tonight,
Wiping traces of you from my life forever,
I know I was a fool who kept believing,
In sincerity and true love,
I may be alone today,
But there is light,
End of the tunnel waiting.
I know there is a lover out for me,
And a true friend,
Away from ego and lies.

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