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Thankyou by Arabian Oud {R}

Because of you today I am so dead alone,
Because of you today, I have none I call my own,
You left me back in darkness and in such cold,
I couldn’t even feel my heart beat anymore,
Because of you today I can not trust anyone,
These days go by
and I change everyday,
Summer is gone and now it’s winter time,
Never felt so blank within myself as today,
Because of you today, no one needs me,
Those feelings of unwanted ness poured,
And tears can’t seem to stop themselves,
Because of you today, I have lost all my looks,
My beauty has faded away and left behind wrinkles,
Because of you today, I am invisible to all,
You enjoy life and pretend to be so noble,
You always used to say I was your girl,
And you were not like ‘others’ at all,I thought you were my best pal,
But it was so easy for you break away,
And pretend like a total stranger to me,
You paid no heed to those rumours you heard,
And believed I spoke ill behind your back,
Because of you today, I am so empty within,
You made people believe I was selfish,
I let go of all those who wanted to leave,
Because I know there was nothing called ‘ honesty’,
Because of you today, I am so bitter,
Full of hate and anti love and marriage,
Because of you today, I have turned careless,
The pen flowed into mystical poetry before,
But now all I write is sadness, tragedy and pain,
They keep saying my pain is smaller to theirs,
But I didn’t ask for comparisons or sympathy,
I paid no heed to the pain of another anymore,
Because I have lost myself within myself,
Away from selfishness and this egoism,
I sinked into the mysteries of relationships,
At first pretending to be sincere and nice,
Once in, they slowly seduce you with their lies,
Making promises and taking away your sympathy,
In the end, all you are left is so drained and alone,
Oh! How foolish was I to believe his words,
Thinking he would be mine, only mine forever,
My innocent heart fell for the trick and I slept in joy,
Waking up the next morning and there is pain,
Shadows of betrayal surround me all the time,
People I called my own now are nothing but strangers,
Because of you today,
I have drifted away into nothing but myself,
And forgotten how it feels to be alive,
Because of you today,
I lost the true meaning of life with liars around,
And those never ending games that tore me,
Because of you today,
I have stopped believing in honesty and love.
So thank you.

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