LONELY by Arabian Oud {R}

When people you know behave so cold one day,

You question yourself ‘ why?’

You start blaming yourself for all the mistakes,

Slowly, you realise it was all a drama,

Everyone vanished and you were left on your own,

Silences over took my body and sealed my lips,

I walked down the streets lonely trying to smile,

The echo of violins melted my heart smoothly,

Sitting at the airport all alone, waiting for my flight,

I notice how people in groups smile and joke,

Hoping I had the same, my eyes showered tears,

He loved me, he promised to be my only for eternity,

But he left me one day, abandoning me middle of the road,

They called themselves my best friends but they lied,

For they never cared about my presence ever,

Lip services were carried out but nothing practical,I was called ‘selfish’ ,

I smiled and listened to their words,

Selfish for being too considerate and emotionally wrecked,

When people you know finally leave you, it’s the end,

But a new beginning of your isolation takes off,

It took me too long to realise this reality,

It doesn’t matter if they are there or not anymore,

I was lonely all along, keeping a single sided feeling so alive.
Now I will be sincere to myself, leaving you all behind,

For my league was different to yours, so pure,

For you never understood my worth and my existence.

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