Bleeding Heart by Arabian Oud {R}

I thought you were my friend,
my companion in sorrows,
and in moments of laughter,
When did I know that it wasn’t so,
you used me only for your purposes,
when you wanted you called me,
Whenever I called you, no reply came,
I could see no sign of you around me,
You said I was your best friend,
but all that became a big lie,
you would share your sorrows,

and ask for advices every now and then,
Asking me to make those calls,
and pass your messages to your ex,
I would do that without thinking twice,
I cared and loved you like my sister,
but you deceived an abandoned me one day,
When I needed you the most in a sorrowing moment,
You said I don’t want to be friends no more,
It was your ego which came in our ways,
You said we were different, culturally,
our lifestyles varied so badly that things wouldn’t work,
It was an instant blow, and I couldn’t take it,
I can’t imagine how some people can do that,
using others whenever they please,
and trash them whenever they please,

today, I lost the meaning of true love and friendship,
I shared my heart with a loved one,
and my soul with someone i called friend,
I don’t know how I will face things,
since I am totally heart broken from now onwards,
it’s like a wound now so deeply cut in my heart,
I wish this wound never heals ever,
I have lost my heart in making new relations,
Don’t you expect life to be so easy, after all this,
I will survive and forget you in some time,
But I will make sure before I fade you in mind,
You feel your selfishness and ego was unjust,
May someone use and abuse you like you did,
And only then shall thee understand the feeling.
My heart bleeds endlessly, weeping in blood.
It shall burn all your memoirs and photographs,
You liar, you cheat, may my hatred ruin you badly,
May you cry more and your soul never rests in peace,
I am going to find plenty more people replacing you,
Someone better, so I dread not losing you...
You were never worth any friendship.

Comments

Anonymous said…

Thats right, we find these users and abusers of pure friendship plently nowadays... people are forgetting the good simple things, and flying past us in arrogance and selfishness, only to stop and stab us then run.... This is normal these days....

10:12 am

Arabianperfume said…

thanks sis for your comments. yes sadly the world is more full of liars, users and abusers.. it becomes hard to distinguish, whos geniune and whos not...

5:02 pm

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