Insecure by Arabian Oud {R}

I wish you knew how I felt right now,

Listen to my heart, it's beating so fast,

Hiding the pain for so long,

now I can't stand,

It's weeping endlessly in dark shades,

I wish you could hear me out baby,

It's a rainy morning in London,

I am thinking about you all along,

I wish I could hold your hands,

And close my eyes,

Saying to myself, 'It's all gona be fine'I assure myself repeatedly,

But tell me o'beloved am I sane?

I fear I have turned manic,

You ask me why?It's your love, sweet heart,

I am drowned immensely in pain,

But there is joy in this pain,

For I seest my beloved everywhere,

I am so insecure, cries my heart,

Why does it feel, your going to leave me,

The fear of losing someone horrifies me,

I feel so speechless, so misunderstood,

Frustrated, hurt, saddened by those mean words,

Can you stop hurting me for once?

Coz I can't take it no more,

I am in love with you,

But you fail to see that,

I don't want to lose my beloved

Coz of another,I am an insecure soul,

Now I fear losing you,

For I am in love,Rumi,

they say love is pure,

But I feel that is a lie,

For every beloved says they love

But only a few can practice that.

Image courtesy- Jacy Kay

Poem: 2005

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