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I can't turn back by Arabian Oud {R}




I can't turn back,
I don't want to open my eyes,
I don't want to cry no more,
But then, he scares me,
Why am I going in circles?
And why is there no escape?
Why does it feel okay to die?
And not fear death anymore?
Why does it feel to laugh at madness?
And not fear others' leaving me today?
Why do I colour my face black?
When this colour is so dark and dangerous?
I can't turn back and act,
And try to be someone I am not,
Why can't they understand what i feel?
And why do they make me feel strange?
Why does this sunny weather look dull?
And the cold weather excites me?
Why have I lost faith in myself?
And given up myself on going wrong?
I am not sure anymore,
If anyone could make me happy anymore,
Or I could even want to be happy anymore,
I don't know what to believe anymore,
What is love? And how does it feel?
I can't turn back to life,
Because it scares me all the time.




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