I AM A CORPSE, I NEED TO RE-LIVE By Arabian Oud {R}

I am a corpse in flesh and blood, yet surviving, living, not thankless to God but lonely. I am made feel emotionally dead, empty, so unwanted,

I was the life of every gathering and circle but now no-one wants to know me, they fake sympathy and friendship,
I was full of life, dancing around and smiling and spreading joy and sharing, but now I am lonely,
This carnival is full of faces, unknown names, so noisy yet sounds so silent,
I am a corpse, I need to live again, to feel I am not dead before my body has crashed in grave,
This body is but a cage, the freedom is gained when I fly higher beyond your thoughts,
And leave this cage behind, it's shackles of emotions and misunderstandings,
Always labelled so badly, called ugly names and called a cheat and betrayer,
I smile and listen to these words and my lips read their comments silently,
Hiding my tears in my eyes, saying to God, why did I have to be here?
Coz no matter what you do, these people will always call me bad names to their own convenience,
Calling when they want, ignoring me when they want, choosing and picking the spices of friendship,
Hatred has over taken my soul, yet you know not, you see and hear what you see,
Not what you know O' people,

You think your the only one in my life, because I was there for you, but your not the only one,
I have been used from time to time, and misjudged by people I once called my friends,

Image courtesy- Ombura

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MISUNDERSTOOD- by Arabian Oud {R}

MISUND ERSTOOD At first they you pretend you care, But in reality you were ignorant, You offered help by lipservice, Nothing practical at all, Everytime I was depressed, You thought it was plain drama, Kept saying 'grow up girl', Changes were noticed slowly, The one day you went away, Here I was seeking love and support, Even my friends abandoned me, Everytime they met,it was about them, I pondered on what I had achieved, But there was no answer at all, They don't understand my problems, They never asked, expecting my life go-lucky, Here I am, Sitting on the bed, surrounded by dark walls, Tears keep flowing down nonstop, Wished there was someone by my side, Wiping them away, hearing my pain out, They call me names and think I am bad, They simply don't know my story, Love they say, is a medicine, But I seest that not, it only gives pain, They all called me immature and left, My heart was broken, the music stopped playing, Violins of my heart cried out so bad, Wished, the...

Towadeeni (you love me) by Arabian Oud {R}

Towadeeni ! You said you love me, But today you behave strangely, As though we aren’t anything special, You treat me so casually, I don’t seem to understand you, Each time I confront you, You say I am being too silly, Bas, your actions don’t follow your words, Is this love I ask myself? You vanish without informing, Keep me worried all along, Maybe you enjoy this attention, But it ain’t no fun believe me, Once, You see me talk to another guy, I notice anger on your face, You puzzle me every time, Coz you never treat me special, Yet are jealous coz I stray, Towadeeni! Don’t make me laugh now, Love ain’t a penny, you keep flipping, I waited for long but now I am leaving, If not today then bacher (tomoro) you will love me, And I am sure of that, Coz ur gona realise, What you lost was something precious No one aint’ gonna take your attitude, I took it for long, coz I loved ya.. Bas now its time to leave , Till you realise what love is.. Note: Image of a model for Abu Haleeqa

YOU SAY I AM BEAUTIFUL BUT I AM UGLY by Arabian Oud {R}

I am beautiful from the outter side but I am so ugly frm inside, you run after the outter side..thinking I am beautiful frm inside, but it aint like tht..majority of the people in this world are plain ugly despite the neat clean image they portray infront of others... They would rather go for someone who's beautiful and corrupt rather than someone who is beautiful and pure. They would want an easy catch, rather a hard to play person. They say 'beauty lies in the eyes of beholder' but I some what refuse to accept this, coz I don't see this happening. It's your outter covering that sells not your inside as a person, not your principles, no matter how educated or talented you are. No matter, how good you are at work or charity or as a family person, they don't wanna know you. The physical attraction that allures you is temporary, what matters is inside, your heart, your feelings, how good you treat someone. The outter beauty ain't gona last forever, what if God...

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