Never had the time by Arabian Oud {R}

Ever since this connection began,
My heart pounded in so much pain,
At first it felt so special and deep,
Never felt this way ever before,
Love you play another trick again,
Trying to trap me into this game,
I have had my share of sorrows,
Can you forget me and find another,
Love felt so special and so right,
But I was wrong all over again,
It was all about him and never me,
Trying to make this work so right,
Everyday that passed brought hopes,
And
Every night saw them die in silence,
They call me a carefree spirit all along,
Full of life and never ever giving up,
But I was human enough to weaken,
Then distances fell in between,
And
I found myself alone everyday,
Attention you say I am after,
It wasn’t suppose to be about me or you,
Thought it was something called love,
Then
Why did you take us away from each other,
Why did you portray me as a demon?
Making me wait all those long nights,
You kept cheating me, yet you refuse,
Playing with my heart and those mind games,
Patience running low, time running out,
You never had the time to know me,
Those words churn to repeat as excuse,
Nothing but lame excuses to keep apart,
You never needed me in your life,
Not even fitting in your life at all,
But you make it sound as if I am wrong,
You pour excuses and want me to stay,
But it’s too late now to hold me back,
My feelings have dried out like a dry leaf,
My heart escalating in silent mourning,
I couldn’t stop myself from loving you,
But I had to let myself go in the unknown,
I had hoped you would realise,
What it means to love and to be loved,
Not take and never give back.
If only you stepped out from your world
And made it work as our world.

May 2008

Shot: by me

London Underground station.

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