ArabianOud {R}

Sometimes... just sometimes when a relationship is under a strain...   Sometimes, a relationship goes through a very rough patch, bump, curve, phase, stage, whatever you would like to call it, it can be pretty daunting!! In the last few months I have been witnessing a lot of various stories that I cannot name for personal reasons, plus there is the confidentiality aspect that I would like to respect and maintain. However, there is something I can definitely do, use these stories in a generalized manner to describe the kind of painful and damaging things I have come to experience and learn about life, particularly relationships. To begin with, all I want to say that at times when the strain of a relationship gets too much to deal with, it will go through a phase where it will crack, snap or break.. Some may consider it to be the end of a relationship, but for others it could be re-assessing the relationship and looking at one's own mistakes and flaws and how things coul...

Sometimes when you go far away from the one you love, you hope they would realise your absence, they would miss your voice, your face, the fragrance of your hair and the soft cuddles and hugs. Sometimes when things go wrong in a relationship and misunderstandings are built you pray for a miracle to take place.  Sometimes when the only person who makes you smile, laugh cry and take the best out of you disappears in your life, you are suddenly left me with a sense of emptiness. This emptiness and void can't be filled with any form of wealth, designer things or leisure or for that fact any other person. Falling in love is probably hard but it is even harder forgetting the person and wiping out their memories from your life. It's not important forgetting , nor do you have to let go especially when there is a possibility that everything could work out and be okay but it would require some patience, hard work, persistence and not giving up on the one person who is truly dear to yo...

I am married to loneliness, I feel safer in darkness, there are no games played, nobody can walk inside my heart and hurt it, make it bleed and leave it alone to die. Such merciless emotions have made my heart like a stone. I cried in silence a million times, my tears flowed and I kept feeling the heart beat sink. He paid no attention, he didn't take me seriously, he left me all alone in this distressing lonely long moment. I searched for him everywhere, but he disappeared. I kept asking myself where I went wrong? I believed in love, I gave way too much than I should have. I was too honest, caring and kind. I let myself forget my own problems and give him my all. He cares not for my bleeding heart and endless tears. All my trust is betrayed and my soul has been crushed. I am married to loneliness because I know love's not worth living for. I know love made my world colourful but it's left me to die, so helpless in pain and cheated. My faith and patience have committed...

Long lonely nights, layered by a dark blanket, Time kept ticking away in a blink of an eye, My existence has been immersed in waiting, An endless waiting, My eyes have stoned, Tears have dried, My heart no longer pounds like before, Days became weeks, Weeks became months And eventually years.. Promises, hopes, faith, I wished this time, it would be different But I am proven wrong, All lost, This curse has nailed me down, Impossible to separate... Love, I desired you, I wished to have a lover, My soul mate, An impossible dream... Arabian Oud

The days seem longer, the nights even longer...the chain of sequences kept repeating in a loop.. everyday seemed identical to the day before.. I sat pondering where I went wrong.. another saddening blog only this time it concludes my life and opens a window to a new experience that each one of us tastes, death. I was a firm believer of love and friendship, somewhere down the line human relationships failed me. No matter how hard I tried and moved on, I was deceived by people who I cherished and trusted the most. You can judge me by saying I am weak and lack faith. I do not blame you. I probably need help in the rehab and get a better understanding and value of life, but I can no longer extend my patience, it's stretched beyond its limit. I had simple principles in life, trust and whatever you do in life, do it with sincerity, but I guess the world doesn't go by these rules, most of the people talk big about love, friendship and about basic human emotions but act totally oppo...

In my solitary moments, Darkness seems to shelter me, And light brings me close to pain, Tears dropping from my eyes, I can hear every beat in my heart, You were so close to me, I thought you were mine, But my heart got tricked by deceit, Every pulse within my vein ignited, Sadness layered over many emotions, I am sinking deeply; I need to cling on, My words refused to speak my mind, I tremble and falls like a drunkard, Your thoughts took centre stage, I gave you my all, my love, my honesty, I cared, I comfort, I am there for him, I loved with purity, so deeply, You show no remorse, you disappear, I am walking alone on a darkened path, Where the road to uncertainty leads, I thought I found my soul mate, But within myself there is conflict, Deceived, isolated and broken, Words failed to sketch my pain on canvass, Silence seems so much better, My heart is layered in pain, For eternity… One day your eyes will search for me, With l...

Whenever you are with me, No matter how hard life gets, I always have you to make me feel loved, You whisper in my ears, Words of encouragement, Everytime I fall, Your love holds me back, Look at this home, We built with so much love and hard work, Where did you disappear one day? And leave me all alone in a place we called 'home' You left me in an endless darkness, With no hope, with tears, with regrets, Was our love so weak? That it couldn't stand the storm? That it couldn't stand these hard tests? Was our love so fake? That instead of holding each other, We run away from each other, And act as if we no longer care, And act as if we are deaf to each other's voice, Act as if we can live without each other, Whenever you are with me, In my thoughts, my loneliness disappears, You are my other half, that completes me, Come back and complete our story, Make this house a home again, Fill it with life and happiness, The love our souls dream for, The love we prayed for.. N...