Suicide

The days seem longer, the nights even longer...the chain of sequences kept repeating in a loop.. everyday seemed identical to the day before.. I sat pondering where I went wrong.. another saddening blog only this time it concludes my life and opens a window to a new experience that each one of us tastes, death. I was a firm believer of love and friendship, somewhere down the line human relationships failed me. No matter how hard I tried and moved on, I was deceived by people who I cherished and trusted the most. You can judge me by saying I am weak and lack faith. I do not blame you. I probably need help in the rehab and get a better understanding and value of life, but I can no longer extend my patience, it's stretched beyond its limit. I had simple principles in life, trust and whatever you do in life, do it with sincerity, but I guess the world doesn't go by these rules, most of the people talk big about love, friendship and about basic human emotions but act totally opposite to it. People who are caught in closed minded families who dare to love then when they try to fight for their love get their wings crippled, the more they try to fly harder higher they eventually give up and this damages the life of the one who has been counting on them....others fake love, playing with someone's emotions and disappearing when the other gets used to them and cannot imagine their life going on without them... I guess these words ' I can't go on without you' are a plain lies, everyone is selfish with their own ulterior motive to get something... there is lust and the desire to feel needed. The basic human need love has lost its real worth in today's world. Others who say they want love, they don't want to commit, they talk about love and marriage being part of two different chapters; then issues of caste, religion, culture and social high and low classes clash.. the world is in hypocrisy of its own.. I used to believe in the word 'love' but over the past few years I simply lost what it means to obtain love, I only saw myself giving love, never getting it back in its real worth. For those who say love is not life, yes it is a part of life but a very important element of life, without which one rots like a flower that doesn't get watered and eventually dies.

Arabian Oud