Married to loneliness by Arabian Oud {R}

I am married to loneliness, I feel safer in darkness, there are no games played, nobody can walk inside my heart and hurt it, make it bleed and leave it alone to die. Such merciless emotions have made my heart like a stone. I cried in silence a million times, my tears flowed and I kept feeling the heart beat sink. He paid no attention, he didn't take me seriously, he left me all alone in this distressing lonely long moment. I searched for him everywhere, but he disappeared. I kept asking myself where I went wrong? I believed in love, I gave way too much than I should have. I was too honest, caring and kind. I let myself forget my own problems and give him my all. He cares not for my bleeding heart and endless tears. All my trust is betrayed and my soul has been crushed. I am married to loneliness because I know love's not worth living for. I know love made my world colourful but it's left me to die, so helpless in pain and cheated. My faith and patience have committed a silent suicide because I can no longer trust. It took me a long while to fall in love, believe him and trust him, it took seconds to break my trust and kill me emotionally. You ask me why I am so cold? Because I feel fooled by all those I trusted. My heart's pining day and night and I am not the same person as I use to be.

Arabian Oud
Original post: 2012

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