ArabianOud {R}

This photograph was taken by me at Selfridges, London's leading mall. It is one of the most happening places there. I noticed this guy being painted and I am like what's going on. So the next thing I notice it's a top of a guy! They do such a great job, it looks so real. I wanted to take a photograph of him but I was so shy, and it was so crowded at the mall. I was hiding behind people and took this pic, my friend was with me and she said if I was shy enough to do that I could ask her to take the pic. But nontheless I did not give up. April 2008

Tied in traditions and promises, Of sincerity & long waited nights, Holding back till I could resist, Letting the soul bleed for long, But not anymore, Pinned down as a copy, I am not your average girl, I broke the cage and ran free, Voices calling me selfish, this and that, But none knew the real me, Your disheartened coz you lost, You thought you got me, Holding me, Sands slipped away when palms opened, I am free spirited yet so calm, These noises have surpassed my tolerance, Break away, voices chanting now, No, I don’t need to tell you again, Because it ain’t worth it no more, I know those words coming from you, Promising not to make the same mistake, But the next morning, it will be the same story, I cared enough for your existence, To hold you close to me for long, Never let you walk off like that, But you got it all wrong again, Overlooking my existence here, So I am running away silently, As you sleep and dream brightly, I am shattering your dreams apart, Breaking our promi

It's been ages since I last penned down something for the blog. I did happen to write a new poem, but didn't manage to post it yet, hopefully I will do so soon. This month's blog revolves around a lot of things, but specifically I would like to talk about 'the preception of depression and health conditions going wrong' by people who matter to us. For those people who have religiously read my blogs and known me through my writing, they must have certainly noticed that 'depression' has been the keyword in my works. It's very unfortunate that depression has been a very seen as a very 'complicated' issue. Like any other disease, it is a disease of the mind that begins to over take your existence, there are vicious cycles that cause paranoia and a lot more. When your in a relationship, people do not even bother to understand what your going through, they probably think ' depression' is a defense mechanism to cause fights. Depression like diab