ArabianOud {R}

Why I suffered? Words: by me It's been so long since I last remember his face, the slap on my face, his hands felt like they were going to kill me. How could he beat me and say he loves me at the same time? Why make all those promises when all he had to was break them everyday? Why marry me when all you did was talk to other girls and cheat infront of my eyes? Why run after me, when I was better off alone and trying to reach out for something better? My life is destroyed, I can not turn back or ahead, I don't know where to go. I have no real home, no real friends and no husband anymore. I have no love. Look at her, she loves someone but can not even look at someone else, she thought he was her life, her everything but all she got in return was lies and more betrayal and more drama.. more games.. both these women share a similar story, the only difference is one is married and the other isn't. Both these women suffered and they suffered because of their love, because the men...

I should begin the blog with a Happy New Year but I am not, I truly do not feel excited about the new year at all, probably at the point where I stand now and I write this, it probably reflects the frame of mind I am in but I can't really be bothered with texting my friends and people around me a Happy New Year because for me it seems like a repetition. A story of dejavu, the years skip by, you learn from your mistakes, then morbidity is over you, difference is you can't show it but if you look carefully it is as dark as the colour black. When a miserable soul seeks peace in God, God tests them, when they seek solace in talking to a friend, they lose interest, when there love is there but not quite there, it feels as if silence has been obtained... when all professional ambitions begin to commit a suicide, it seems worthless to achieve anything anymore.. In the darkness of my lonely darkest hours, I sketched a portrait of my feelings, not like it should be but how it's made...

From the moment we met, From the moment our eyes met, And our hearts connected, This feeling called 'love' grew stronger, Days went by, weeks and then months, It's been so long since I first loved you, But problems emerge and so does pain, No love story is perfect, Neither are you, nor am I, I remember your sweet voice, And that sharp gaze of your eyes, Piercing my heart with every time, The innocence of your thoughts, I look upon you as a lover, a teacher, a friend, I loved you not for a day, Nor for a week or months, My love to you is for eternity, No matter if silence is between us, It wraps me around with the warmth of your voice, I hear your voice echo and call me home, I loved you for who you are, No matter how hard things may seem, But victory shall over take this misery, And our love shall blossom soon, True love remains through ups and downs, It is not weak at heart, It lives a lifetime, If there is hope and faith with honesty, Love shall grow stronger, My love to ...

For someone, It seems I have become worthless for you, now that the game is getting over for you, you left the scene and left me alone to suffer. Silence may have taken over and made these moments hard but what breaks my heart that I never meant anything for you other than a name. I have become a name and a number and one you feel it's enough, you just decide to delete me. I used to believe that love is deeper and pure and it can tolerate any pain because no pain means no gain. If we got everything in life very easily we would not value it, and we would not respect how much hard work that is put into getting it. Relationships have lost it's meaning.. in the digital age of the internet, facebook, myspace, flickr, hi5 and others, it seems that real relationships are committing a daily suicide... if you choose to keep your marital status single online you are in trouble if you keep it taken , you are in trouble.. but beyond all this what matters is a real relationship that is beyo...

If you really love me, Then why did you leave me, Middle of the road alone, If you really love me, Why did you break all the promises, And use words to cheat me, If you really care about me, Then why did you let me die in silence, If you really love me, Then why didn't wipe my tears? Can you hear what everyone is saying? They say you don't love me, Because this is a game for you, And that you won't ever come to me, If you really love me, Why did you not be there, When I needed you the most. ___________ words: by me

There's something about him, The way he looks at me, His eyes pierce my heart, The way he talks to me, He touches my soul deeply, His smile melts me completely, I can feel my cheeks go red, And the warmth of his words, So pure and full of loyalty, His eyes kill me smoothly, They force me to remain silent, And gaze at him for hours, His eyes hypnotise me, I feel myself immersed forever, He pierces my heart with his love, And his endless care, Oh, how I long to be with him forever, His eyes cast a magic on me, I love him dearly endlessly.