ArabianOud {R}

The Hidden Soul... Hiding from the world, Coz I feel I cannot trust, I feel it in my spine, I feel it in my heart, The pain, the sadness, ... The disappointment continues, Revealing something new, I got tricked by you, You were clever to exploit, My innocence, My purity, My soul, Play a mind game for so long, Then abandon me in the end, Leaving me to bleed and die... How could you be so cold? To do this to the one you love, You once said, you would never leave, How could you then fade like air, And leave me clueless, I question myself now everyday, Did I deserve this torment and endless pain?

The heart an empty vessel The heart is now an empty vessel, A single sound of screech laments, My soul is in an endless sorrow, My inspiration and my glimmer of hope, All washed away by the sea shore, All my hopes dashed into tiny pieces, There is darkness within the heart, Memories reside within of him, He was my inspiration and soul mate, But its always the same story, False promises, abandonment and loneliness, He said 'he was different', I believed him, Less did I know, That my fate was cursed till Doomsday, No mantra can undo my blackened luck, Love, you play games with me, Disguised in different faces, You cheat me, I wound I surrender to my defeat and darkness My heart is an empty vessel, A cursed organ.. Published: December 2015

If I could... If I could say this, I'd say I need u to be mine, Be my all, be my morning, noon and night, If I could make you feel, I'd make you see how‎ much I love you, Why couldn't you read between the fights my desire for u to be with me? The desire for love.. I wish I could tell you how much I needed to be loved back by you, If I could make you understand, you would see I needed purity in emotions, If I could hold u in my arms I'd make u see what insecurities I hold, If I could I'd be ur best friend, ur companion + all in one package deal, If I could, I'd want to live carefree knowing u r holding my back, No its not about me, this is selfless love, love for us, Give me a drop of love, I'd give u an ocean, my soul is thirsty. But I wish and dream a lot and I'm incomplete, if I'd say this, I wish you completed me

Immersed within this dark emotion, I breathe within this darkened surrounding, There's so much silence outside, But a complete carnival within myself, Nobody could comprehend my sorrow, My smile & laughter deceives them sweetly, An endless wait is all I have ever had, My patience was long stretched, Encountered by constant disappointments, Overwhelmed & taken aback by hurt, Anxiety & fear turmoil my mind, Darkenss seems to comfort me better, Holding me grounded confidently, Lights brings its own fears & deception, Glimmer of sunlight & false hopes, Darkness seems to shelter me safely, Entrapped in a wild jungle of life, People scare me but nature secures me, Sadness wrapped my body perfectly, I walk down those crowded streets, But within is an endless void, You may describe as me sensitive But that's just not who I come close to, I was never understood with clarity, Entangled in a web of confusion continu

I am black, I am white, I am happy, I am sad, I am sweet, I am sour I am honest, I am blunt, I am loved, I am hated, ... I am eccentric, I am mad, All in all, I am myself