ArabianOud {R}

Fidelity   You talk about fidelity, I thought you dared me, I was up for this challenge, But then it all seems so fake, Coz you never ever cared, Unaware of your mood swings, I am here by your side, loving you, But it seems like a game, a set up, Watching me talk to my male mate, You get so jealous, you walk away, I am running after you, trying to convince, Why do you take it the wrong way man? He’s only a “friend” of mine, You don’t wanna hear this now, You say it to my face, “I am tired of your friends, tell them to go”, You raise hand to slap me and I run away, It's been always about what you wanted, You neglected my needs and what I am made of, It’s been a few years of misery with all that, Those gloomy, rainy nights all alone, You living with me, But it seems I don’t know you at all, I cook that special meal for ya, Food on the table goin wasted, What the hell, this life’s so twisted, I sneak by the window

  His eyes are full of tears, He's helpless yet silent, Watching him from far, I saw how lonely he was, His eyes tells a story, Full of endless pain, Locked into a room far from everyone, He has no life but this, so cold, His madness got him this far, It was his love for her, She then cheated him and left, But left him behind so empty Can't you see, He has a pure heart, he's honest, I can't watch him cry so alone, I want to be there to wipe them, And be his true companion, Fears take over my mind, Questions after questions in my mind, Why do we hurt the one who loves us? Why this cruelty and why this drama? Our eyes look at each other, Suddenly I am hypnotised, Everything seems magical, His eyes say never leave me alone, He fears loneliness and begs for love, Where will my heart lead me, Why does love hurt? And my soul finally rest in peace, The answers remain incomplete.   June 2009 Model: unknown

You're making me cry   You're making me cry, With your cruel words, Hurting immensely The look in your eyes Gave me weird vibes, You overlooked my emotions, Failing to comprehend how I feel! I have fulfilled every wish of yours, Tried to make you see my agony in life, Alas! every attempt of mine failed Maybe, you're ignoring my plea Maybe you're just blind In a garden of roses, Several secrets reside, Every rose I picked, Holds your fragrance, Every rose you gift me, Hurts me more and more What good is a rose? When you fail to understand me You're making me cry, I cry in solitude Unaware of what you 'be done You walk by the door, Waving me goodbye! I stand still watch you go by, I won't let you hurt me again, No more depending on your support I make myself believe I am no more frail Just wished you could know, How I actually felt How the sweetness of your words once tormented me Y

Silent waves Words: Arabian Oud {R} Year 2007     As she walked out of the room, That brightness of my heart dimmed, As he walked away into unknown, Questions kept looming in my mind, Fears of losing & letting go pumped, I couldn't express this pain anymore, But I had no escape then falling in, Temptations you knock my heart, Why are you forcing me to betray? The pen's ink has dried long ago, I can no longer write so purely, It's all happening with me at once, This pain is overtaking my existence, It's  been a while since I last cried, And the last time I ever smiled, That reflection in the mirror of me, Is full of stains and so improper. I used to have your hand next to mine, But soon that faded away into unknown, Silent waves, It's all so complicated to explain now, I am falling deeper minute by minute, Screaming out but in no vain, Hurt, so misunderstood and isolated, It's all been a bumpy ride for sometime, Full

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The Outcast   Copyright: 2008   Words: by Arabian Oud {R}   You have to be strong to take on what this world gives you, what people around gift you in good and bad situations, how they deal with you, how they use you or fulfil sincerity, what their views are, and if you don’t agree with the terms and conditions of the environment you reside in, you need to be strong enough to survive in such a circle and be the master of your own destiny. Thus breaking the bondage that holds you back and makes you feel so suffocated. How do you fight back to such a system which only makes you weaker? How do you turn around and become your own decision maker? Do you let traditions and society run over your individuality? Where do you draw the line? The Outcast is an attempt to highlight these issues, it is a story of a girl Hessa, she is 23 years old, who belongs to a Middle Eastern society, but she always does what she believes in after endless suffering and miseries. She develops into