ArabianOud {R}

I gave my all to the one I loved, To the one who was my world, But it feels so stupid now, Because now I have nothing left, Vanished into thin air, he walked away, Leaving me behind with emptiness, Holding hands in hands, But not knowing who I really am, This feels such a lie, Needed those eyes searching for me, Searching endlessly, But I was so wrong, Because I never got that in return, My honesty, my enemy, Like a snake tied around my neck, Feeling so destitute and crumbled, My emotions wounded, Bleeding endlessly but you can not see, Come closer to see my tears fall, Hear me cry those days and nights, When I shared my world with him, When my honesty hurts, When it has left me so alone, Believing I am the only one, When I am not, This love, a slow poison, A disguse of a million lies. ______________

When all friends vanish away, When love vanishes away, When emotional bonds are broken, And hearts are spared the silence, When nobody understands you, And judging you all the time, When people keep breaking your heart, And tears never end, When life seems like a joke, And the purpose to be here is unclear, When you lose pleasure in life, And plan a journey into the unknown, When friendships and love were artificial, And you realise you were such a fool, To fall into traps one after another, And people used you and vanished away. This is when you call and emotional suicide, Because you are left of emptiness...

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I don't know how to explain this situation, I feel rock bottom at this level, there are all kinds of emotions running inside me.. fear of losing, worrying, pain, repeat of the same events which took place a few months ago.. the feeling of losing the meaning of life and of feeling... walking so far ahead that it doesn't hurt losing my life and losing the meaning of life.. But the one thing that does really matter the most here is the people I love, my parents, and for me they are my world.. I must say this has been the worse year of my entire life.. so much pain, sadness and endless worry.. not a moment of happiness.. I wonder why I am here.. what about the people who do everything wrong and are not even scared of Allah but they get away with everything they are doing fine.. then they say that Allah knows best, yes indeed that's what we say in the end to make ourself believe that everything is going to be fine.. but how far is this true? I don't know even know where to g...

When promises break, Hearts break, Distances increase, Communication breaks down, You do not see eye to eye, Hearts beat faster, Your mind keeps thinking, When promises break, Sadness overtakes you, For the one who has been wronged, Is left miserable and alone.. Hurt and in endless pain.. When you need someone by your side And they are not there for you, How does it feel to be alone, And to suffer all alone, In silence and tears? How does it feel to suffer, When he has no clue, Of your miseries, When time is up, He will realise the loss, When you walk away, When promises break..

Silence can be ones best friend when noone around is you when you need them. Sometimes, a piece of paper and a pen are enough to accompany on a long journey. When you keep looking at the mobile phone for someone to call, or for a friend to sms you back and you get no reply or importance that one does deserve, it isolates you. An inner isolation is worse because it cuts off your power to interact with others. The voices within limit your existence and disconnect you from all those people who you think are your friends but are not. It disconnects you from all those who you think could be your shoulder to hear you cry. But now I wonder which way to go, I feel very lost and it seems that silence can be a painful suffering. Sometimes, when I feel that I need to hear someone's voice at this late hour of the night, and there is no reply, I feel alone.Sometimes when I try to make everything okay and make an attempt to gather all my friends together I fail, only to realise that I am no lon...