ArabianOud {R}

From my old closet of thoughts: this probably fits in my life now! have a read... and let me know what you think!!!! I wanted you as a part of my soul, my heart but I was foolish because no one was worthy of my love. All my efforts, emotions and time were a total waste. Why did I believe, you were mine and why did I believe I belonged to you? You gave me these dreams, you instilled love in my soul, that mystery than disappeared away. Now everything seems so distant and vague; seems like another dream, another illusion, that took me on a joy ride than converting into tragedy and finally into an unforgettable rollercoaster ride. My eyes open and it’s all gone, like a fairground where everything dims out after midnight. Could you hear my heart beat? Could you hear these silences speak out and fill the loneliness around me? Could you stop blaming myself for being what I am? The magic of those eyes seems ever-lasting. He captivated my heart and that this wasn’t a crush. There was a bond cr...

I must admit, I have felt so lost within myself, I can not see a world beyond this darkness, I wake up everyday hoping for brightness, But soon these hopes dash in a deeper place, Could you win my trust back and let me know, How it feels to be loved and admired again? I must admit, this long night is never ending, This stormy night instills fear in my soul, This place called 'home' is full of silence & me, I wish I was able to forget those emotions like a nightmare, That haunted me for several months as they left, I wish I could wipe away those memories one day, I must admit, this longing & yearning does instill pain, But I knew this was the only way out of my emptiness, The ink's dried and my emotions stagnant, I need to escape from my own cage called 'body', To rise again like a phoenix.

If angels exist then I need one to be mine, To hold on to my heart and never let go, I know he would come one day sooner, But it seems like a long wait for now, At times I feel so lost & speechless, I wish he was by my side right now, I know he wouldn't leave me ever, They say they are sincere & caring, A deeply wounded heart is so alone, But it is not pity that I seek beloved, It is someone who would understand, I would give my heart & soul away, But I wished he would come sooner, Poem: by me