ArabianOud {R}

Speechless.... O beloved, look what an endless wait for you has led me to, I have become bitter, then sweet then sour and then reached a point where my emotions just dried and i was speechless. coz i knew no-one understood me.

How many times.. How many times will I be deceived by people I trust How many times will my hopes be dashed like a broken glass How many times will I have to wait by the door to see you come, And then waiting endlessly, I never find you come Coz you were some where else, And me here waiting like a fool, Abandoning all my dreams and life for you, This is what I received instead, nothing but wait How many times, will my eyes cry in darkness And silently drink my own blooded tears, Without letting a single soul know how I feel. How many times will I fall in love and get crushed before finding the "one" Is it always going to be a game of destiny and fate? Am I puppet who's strings are pulled by others? Allowing others to treat me in the worst way they could How many times will people dominate and hurt me emotionally, physically? And play their mind games before finally defeating me? How many times will people keep lying whilst I stand firm with my truth? Is it the good vers

I miss I miss those days when I see sawed with you, I miss making excuses for you when we were in trouble, I miss lending my shoulder to you, when you cried, I remember how you complaint about the other kid having a better toy, I would giggle secretly and make you feel yours was better, I miss the merry go round in our playground, I miss my first crush, on the boy next door, I miss us building our first tree house, I miss our lemon tree, we would pluck some lemons, I miss those days when we secretly had candies, I miss those days when we played hide and seek, I miss those days when we raced at school, I miss those wonderful days when we were kids, Where did those beautiful days vanish? Where did we lose our innocence in this world? Why did the complications of life intervene? Why did I become a sacrificing goat each time, I miss those days when my tears were counted by you, You would lean to me and comfort me endlessly, Whisper in your childish voice and laugh, ]Where did we lose all t