ArabianOud {R}

I am a corpse in flesh and blood, yet surviving, living, not thankless to God but lonely. I am made feel emotionally dead, empty, so unwanted, I was the life of every gathering and circle but now no-one wants to know me, they fake sympathy and friendship, I was full of life, dancing around and smiling and spreading joy and sharing, but now I am lonely, This carnival is full of faces, unknown names, so noisy yet sounds so silent, I am a corpse, I need to live again, to feel I am not dead before my body has crashed in grave, This body is but a cage, the freedom is gained when I fly higher beyond your thoughts, And leave this cage behind, it's shackles of emotions and misunderstandings, Always labelled so badly, called ugly names and called a cheat and betrayer, I smile and listen to these words and my lips read their comments silently, Hiding my tears in my eyes, saying to God, why did I have to be here? Coz no matter what you do, these people will always call me bad names to their

Standing by the shore tonight, I feel so cold full of fright, Imagining how you disrespected my love, I have never felt so alone, For a moment, I feel your with me, Your fragrance of Dhehnel-Oud passes by, I am mesmerised and totally in love, Kissed by the moon- light and cold weather, The shores totally drifted me away, Sitting on the cold sand, I am building a sand castle, Where my dreams reside silently, Cheated, betrayed and bruised, I am emotionally empty within, Felt it was true love, you & me, But less did I know, it was a lie, Living a lie for such a long time, Believing you were mine, I escaped and burnt my wings, Surrounded by your memories, It feels to hard to let go of you, Close my eyes and wake up to afresh, I wish it were so easy to let go of love, But for now,I am so emotionally damaged, Waiting to be healed by true love.. Coz now I realise, I was never in love but only cheated By me Image courtest- www.studioeb.com